In no particular order:

1. ABBA - Gold

2. The Rocket Summer - Do You Feel

3. The Amelie Soundtrack

4. John Mayer - Where The Light Is (Although I like every CD he's made)

5. Across the Universe soundtrack

6. A Fine Frenzy - One Cell in the Sea

If I think of any more I'll add them. I don't know a lot of album's names. Haha. =]

I feel like writing.

But what to write about?

Well, let's start with today.

I talked to Harrison today. Like a real person. We talked about church, tattoos, school, life. It was quite pleasant. Even Lyndsey, the boy expert, was proud of me. I wasn't a bumbling idiot. I am actually quite proud of myself.

This is going to sound weird. But, I'm going to say it. During the short time I was talking to him, I had an overwhelming urge to touch him. No, not like that, you pervs. But to just shake his hand, or hug him. It felt like there was a magnet between us. I mean, he was smiling at me like crazy. I felt this palpable attraction toward him. It wasn't well, physical. It was, but it wasn't. It was something beyond that, and I think he may have felt something as well. I hope so. I really, really hope so. Because something tells me in my soul that we are meant to be.

And, as good as it sounds, sometimes it's just way to much to comprehend.

But the most telling thing is what makes me the happiest. You see, I usually have the biggest problem with looking into the eyes of someone I don't know. It sounds stupid, but I really hate it. I feel like they could steal my soul. Haha. Idk. XD Anyways, even with this problem, I had no trouble looking into his eyes. Like, I felt like I knew him for years. It was totally comfortable for me. Which rarely, rarely ever happens upon first meeting someone. I could've looked into his eyes all day (which are the coolest shade of blue, by the way. *sigh*).

I wonder if he could tell I like him. I think he could.

I'm just glad I've had this long to figure out who I am. At no point in my life have I been attached to another person--and I've spent all that time becoming comfortable in myself and in who I am. I've never needed someone. It's been only me up to now. Only I have defined who I am, and no one else. I have invented myself up until now. So now, being me, being comfortable in my own skin, I am ready for a relationship. Not an attachment, not a dependence. I just want to be with someone. To be two people connected by a spiritual string that goes beyond a physical attraction, to be truly in love.

I'm just looking for that simple, childish love that I envy so much. A love without judgment, without fights, without fear. Just a strong, unwavering faith in another person. And to feel that back. That would be the ultimate life's blessing. It says even in the Bible, that you could have all the gifts and great things in the world but if you don't have love, you are nothing. I don't want my life to become that. I want to be something to someone.

And, I think this is it.

I'm crying right now. Not out of sadness, but more of Joy. I have such an overwhelming feeling that my life as I know it is about to change for the better. I feel as if I'm about to catapult into greatness, that my life will finally take flight and I will soar in the clouds. I've always wanted to be in the sky, but I've been stuck in the mud. I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for, and I'm about to break free of the roots that have held me back thus far.

It's a little scary, but I know that when I get there, it'll be worth the effort.

And I can't wait for the day when I get to where I want to be and I can look back on all of this and wonder why I waited so long to fly.

No one reads these things anyways. If you do, I appreciate it. I really, really do.

In my dreams at night I see you standing there,
like an angel from heaven you have come and touched
my heart and soul,
you make me complete with your gentle words of
encouragement,
you give me the strength I need to succeed.

When i look into your eyes, i see a spirit that is
complete,
with all the love, faith, and hope
that one can possess inside,
even though our lives carry us apart,
I want you to know that this bond i have with you...
goes further than the skies above.

No matter how far apart we are,
my love for you will always stay true,
for you truly are an angel to me,
i will love you endlessly,
for it doesn't matter what you're like on the outside
to me,
your inner being is what attracts me to you,
whenever i see you i see a guy who needs someone to
hold,
and share their deepest feelings with,
and if i was given the chance,
I know I would be able to make your life complete!

Have you ever had one of those days

where you knew it was the first day

of the rest of your life?

Well, that day was today.


And I really like this feeling. =]

Wake, butterfly -
It's late, we've miles
To go together.

Bashō


Star
I returned to you years later,
gray and lovely city,
unchanging city
buried in the waters of the past.

I’m no longer the student
of philosophy, poetry, and curiosity,
I’m not the young poet who wrote
too many lines

and wandered in the maze
of narrow streets and illusions.
The sovereign of clocks and shadows
has touched my brow with its hand,

but still I’m guided by
a star by brightness
and only brightness
can undo or save me.

Adam Zagajewski


“For Sale: Baby shoes, never worn.”

A Short Story, Ernest Hemingway


For here is Death, rustling at my ear. "Live!" says he, "for I'm coming.”

Virgil

IT FINALLY HAPPENED!

I FINALLY TALKED TO HIIIIIIIIIM!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA*breath*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

go me.

go me.

uh huh.

go kali.

go livvy.

go lynn.

GO ME!

*parties*

I HATE YOUR FACE

I HATE YOUR VOICE

I HATE YOUR TEETH

I HATE YOUR COMMENTS

I HATE WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT THE PEOPLE I LOVE

I HATE HOW YOU THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE

I HATE YOUR PERSONALITY

I HATE YOU

AND YOUR LIFE.

I WISH I HAD NEVER MET YOU THAT LONG TIME AGO...



It felt good to get that one out.

Hello.

I just wanted to say that I love you, miss you, and pray for you every night.

You are beautiful.

Thanks for loving me.

I appreciate your existence on this earth.

I can't wait to meet you one day.

I just don't know who you are.

Yet.

Love, Me.



I really am hopeful. For the first time in a long time. =]